{"id":128,"date":"2014-08-28T19:34:32","date_gmt":"2014-08-29T00:34:32","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/calledtolifecoaching.com\/?p=128"},"modified":"2015-10-13T14:05:08","modified_gmt":"2015-10-13T19:05:08","slug":"day-3-on-my-journey-to-joy","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/calledtolifecoaching.com\/day-3-on-my-journey-to-joy\/","title":{"rendered":"Day 3 on My Journey to Joy"},"content":{"rendered":"
Can I just tell you…I’m done. \u00a0Like stick a fork in me and turn me over done. \u00a0Chris has been out of town for the past three weeks, but almost home as I speak\/write and Luke has been battling pneumonia for the past week. \u00a0I haven’t slept a decent night one way or the other. \u00a0And I’d be more than toast were it not for my big girls who are so capable to pick up my slack; I wasn’t at their age.<\/p>\n
I sure hope I don’t cause any scandal, but I need an easy read of Philippians today. \u00a0I’m reading Chapter one<\/a> in the Message Bible. \u00a0Sometimes it has the straight out, if not sometimes base talk I can handle in this state of mind. \u00a0I’m not at a place of “Thee or Thou” right now. \u00a0I’m not even at a “And then Jesus said…” \u00a0Nope, I’m hanging on to, “And He was like…” \u00a0I need Jesus.<\/strong> \u00a0But more importantly right now, I need a friend in Jesus<\/strong> so I figure He’s ok with a pretty relaxed conversation between the Word and I.<\/p>\n <\/p>\n <\/a><\/p>\n <\/p>\n Please Lord, have mercy on me as I struggle with learning to love appropriately, to use my head and test my feelings. It has been easy, too easy, to slip into a slothful state with Chris away. Quick meals with no real family connection…Lord have mercy on me. It has been too easy to slip into a sleep deprived grumpiness that only a visitor can pry me out of because I wouldn’t want them to think bad of me…Lord have mercy on me. It would have been easy to consider and wonder at a gossip\/slander or calumny shared because it would divert my mind off my menial problems and struggles…Lord have mercy on me (and thank God for a wise spiritual father).<\/p>\n I don’t know that I have loved much or well and I can’t really see any flourishing going on, unless it’s my children stepping in to help a poor momma out, but I committed to this journey to joy<\/a> and that has kept me accountable in these circumstances. It has kept St Paul’s Letter of Joy<\/a> in the forefront of mind knowing I made a commitment to this little place on the web and you all. And for that I am grateful. God surely knows what He intends.<\/p>\n <\/p>\n There’s far more to this life than trusting in Christ. There’s also suffering for him. And the suffering is as much a gift as the trusting. <\/p>\n And I’m not even kidding myself thinking I’ve suffered for Christ. I’ve just rattled off a list of small, first world “sufferings for Christ” and not only have I not suffered well…that list is pretty dang small and wimpy.<\/p>\n But I have considered my trust in God more and more.<\/p>\n <\/p>\n My favorite Bible Journaling Resources<\/strong><\/p>\n The NRSV Notetaker\u2019s Bible<\/a><\/p>\n Prismacolor Premier Colored Pencils, 24 Pack, Assorted Colors<\/a><\/p>\n
\n\u2020Philippians 1:29<\/p><\/blockquote>\n