That second day I went to the little church in my town and kneeled down on my pew in front of God, and tried to get in a prayerful mindset. I thought of the things I was truly anxious and scared about, that tiny little place of true and deep fear in my heart. I thought “don’t do it Michelle, don’t let the lid off that tiny box, you’ll come unglued and won’t be able to keep it together.” Then I realized that doing that is exactly the reason I was there. I was there to open that box and let God in, I was there to come unglued and not hold it together.